Anyway...
I've had so much heartache in the past...first I was to ugly...then to fat...then not girly...so I just gave up on love...I was always tossed aside...I thought with
I was pretty down...and so was
I think we really thought no matter what,we'd never be loved again.
To Kerry,I've known her for so long,the very first of my friends to adopt me as a sibling.She was so much like me,and she was so nice and gentle.Her personality is so warm and giving...how someone cant like her..I have no clue.Many who dont are just butt-fuck trolls so...
I always liked her..on a deep level,but in my family,and I quote "if it aint straight,it aint right" so...I just feared being myself..
I'm Pansexual,I love every gender/sex. I mean I'm a spaz whore with Males and Masculine Intersex
I'm not sexually active,in fact,I may be a mental pervert,but..sex itself? No...
So much "sexual" stuff...in my childhood,lets say...I'm fine being a sexless virgin...
But anyway....
When I found out I was Pan,I felt so comfortable,so happy,
And I admited my attraction to everyone...but still I had to sheild it from my family...My dad would literally beat me,and my mom wouldnt look at me the same,even kick me out...
Kerry...she was already in a relationship (such a very..chaotic,unstable,abusive one..) that...I tried guys,I tried to help them...I introduced Sarah to her;; or more so helped to get them together.And...I never felt worthy enough to tell her...she doesnt deserve some horrible,low life like me
I helped Kerry get back up,and I was so happy! She got back up on her feet so fast,I'm still so proud of her,since she was told "she'd never be loved again or have someone as amazing as her" so...
We got even closer as sisters then,inseperable,but...soon..that feeling...that feeling I tucked away...came back up...soon..I just broke down to
I really do love you Kerry...so much,I smile at you,when I hear your voice,it's the best sound in the world,and hearing you laugh makes me laugh too,you're such..an amazing person,and when you hurt...I will hurt with you too...I'll laugh with you,cry with you,battle against enemies for you,what ever you want..I will always do for you,you have my entire heart...regardless of what you do.If you break it,I'll still love you.I support you with every and anything.
Our relationship may be seen as homosexual...but I dont see a label,I dont love you for your body or sex...I love who you are,the entire spirit and mind..all of you,I love you the most...I love all your silly words.If it's a taboo? I'll break it.Hey,I'd go to hell and back 10 times in a row for you
Maybe at the con,we can waltz too in the FMA ball xD just as Greed and Ed,a BEAUTIFUL ENEMIES THAT HATE EACH OTHER GREATLEH CRACK LUUURRRV.
That Roy you danced with...was a luck guy
But in a sense,I cant tell you enough Kerry,I love you.Soooo much.My heart is yours and..I wont ever let you be hurt by anyone...and if you are hurt where I cant stop it? I'll hurt there with you,holding your burden on my shoulders.








I heard in one of her journals that she has a crossdressing girlfriend.
oh well, shit happens sometimes